Climbing out of the Pit

For the past six months, I had been miserable because of a falling out with one of my closest friends. But just recently, my brother came to me and told me in all seriousness, "You should smile more. You're default face isn't a smiling one anymore." And that evening, I attended a Leadership seminar in church. During worship, we sang "Lord of All."

I want to live for You
Be glorified forever
My life will declare
That You alone are Lord

Everything of me
Use it for Your glory
That everyone will see, will hear, will know
That You are Lord of All.

And that song struck me. I thought I had pledged my allegiance to my King. Then why am I being controlled by my circumstances and my rage? When people look at me, they wouldn't think I serve the King. I haven't been doing my part as a Warrior who had pledged her life to her Liege. I hadn't been fighting my demons.